dreams from last night. You know, maybe its for the better or meant to be that i can't lucid dream like you...who knows
i still haven't found those 6 fingers or that watch you told me
primordial symbols in dreams . entering order. but there is something else....
https://youtu.be/PwilhizbssQ?si=bu--CAPCvUejGQ-g
love u mom and dad
two broken people who compliment each other
https://youtu.be/innTGsOCuJw?si=VmGXPU8hPovtegGY
https://dougrgamble.substack.com/p/when-jesus-walked-away-from-the-crowd
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ek7FGT-kMXA
Aveces la vida nos abruma con dilemas y entramos en analisis paralisis
pero mas seguido que nunca resulta que ya habiamos tomado una decision mucho antes de que se presentara el dilema
i love how your words peirce thru my heart without leaving a trace of blood
are you sure you're a vampire?
cuanto mides con tus botas mas altas?
puedes morder mi cuello sin perforarme con tu corona de espinas?
te regalo dos onzas de mi sangre para rellenar tu lapicera
pero no me tires tierra
despues de encuerar mis frutas rojas.
almost a year ago.
"Twenty minutes later turns into five days later, and the energy needed to act becomes more."
"We bank on having more energy tomorrow, but we assume the energy cost will be the same—and it is not."
"The moment you procrastinate, you add a burden called guilt."
Dr.k
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bm2Q9HkbLsQ&t=294s
Hate can destroy mountains. use wisely.
Looking back, it sometimes felt like my parents had little to no faith in me, which lead me to be overprotected by them. skepticismaxxing!
I forgive them.
My mind has been flooding with ideas and thoughts regarding what it means to have a family
and a community, but also to be aware of false communities...
i'm not that worried about cults tbh, also, they are more common than you realize
History does not repeat but it often rhymes
my story is not unique(99.9999999% of it)
And as i said. i will never doubt my hunch ever again...
I just have this feeling that i will find my answer
in old mythology
It's deep dive, but it atracts me.
its been a while since i last suprised myself.......
Dreams where i control gravity are the best. just fly around and walk on walls. No patterns so far. Lovers Friends and strangers are unique and don't show up more than once.
It's been a long time since i last felt the trauma of abandonment. It suckssss but at least it's not as bad as last time.
I mean, nothing really happened. much of it is in my mind. Everything feels heavy but coffee makes me stay awake.
Usually in this state i am sleeping alot and have the same show on repeat.
I'm sorry i couldn't go. I still feel sad about not being able to go to ______ and see ____ blue ______.
A dear friend gave me support and reminded me that yeah i was exposed to a descent amount of stress and
that paralized you to a point of affecting your mental health. Although it's true that i could have managed sooner, i never did.
i thought i could have done it my way, but you know, make plans and god will laugh... but you didn't need to throw a drone near me you asshole.
I also don't want to forget this. As much as a bummer it makes me feel just writing and sharing this. i'd hate myself forever if i ever repeat this.
Many months ago i had a session with my therapyst. She told me to close my eyes and imagine i am walking thru a forest.
More than less i remember at the end of the road i saw many friends.
i thought damn, i would love to be there, oh and surely one person was standing out of the party, so i just told her it was a being of light that caught my attention LOL.
I didn't know my therapyst was looking if i had someone in my mind.
"Siempre fui desalineado ¿y de repente me miras?"
Recipe no, Novela yes
We are finite creatures in an infinite universe
Whats a question so beautiful that'll break the ideal and real you?
Oh to one day reach the limit of questions.
Luckily for me... this na
If you can imagine cutting an uncuttable rope...
A chest full of hot blood and planes that come and go...
It's a maze with no end.
silence after *****.
Ah yes, the sensation of frustration and helpessness. what an old feeling. But i should not be blinded by these feelings.
There are many sidequest out there!
I felt a knot in my throat. Am sure many did. I wish i could do a side quest and share you my exp.
share you my broken glasses...
P FKN R P FKN R P FKN R AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
ay dio mio
My friend is dealing with an 8 year old relationship break up.
Despite everything she is doing alright
Just being present and asking how are you can mean a lot.
What's beyond my daily thoughts of your vowels and your every so often spicy meals?
There lies my chest waiting to be opened with plastic knives.
And a pair of unfettered eyes for when you want a mirror to put on lipstick.
The sea coming in and out. The fear and love for god is no different.
i wanna go whalewatching so bad!!!!
A rule for studying religious studies is to be neutral. My fears and desires...
My knees are not sweating anymore. Damn me if i ever try to submit to a religion ever again.
Just shows how impractical and unnecessarily radical i can be sometimes...
Sometimes i hate how often i lean towards radical instead of gradual change.
But the end result more often than not is soulful with scratches on my shoulders.
Patience!
Can we rest here for a moment?
Under this mango tree. It's not harvest season
But i brought some dried spicy mangos from last.
Submitting to a higher power...
I have not dedicated time to this topic personally until last night
i've been under pressure lately, moving to a new place being the main one and
other stuff are stacking up as well... BUT
it's under this pressure where i understand what it means to submit to a higher power
and ask for help
In the calmness i remembered many years ago i encountered a feminine energy
After losing control of my body and seeing my legs turn into those of a bird (digitigrade)
she said "No te quedes atras" or "Don't fall behind"
i then fell inside an infinity mirror and passed out
"Waking up" i saw nothing but a lifeless tree. emiting rainbow from the roots to its dried branches.
My intuitive conclusion is that i encountered no one else than virgen maria
or to be more precise a syncretism of virgen maria
The clothes she was wearing reminded me of the Mazatec people
Freedom and warmth. The great journey has started.
Some months ago asked someone how do i become a leader?
She then responded back with a question
Do you want to be a leader because of egotist reasons or altruistic reasons?
At the time i didn't know. Maybe i wanted both but thats not a proper answer either
After one of many devastating news that hit my country i then realized.
Of course i would be happy to lift a world cup
But i would feel much more satisfied knowing that i was able to contribute
to a healthy community in sports and keep young people away from bad influences
I'm still gonna be working remotely obviously.
Finally got the vasectomy!
It hurts to see people whom i love suffer.
I'd love to send you videos of cats or email you a thousand hugs...
oh to be present.
Hace meses que no veo una chispa en el cenizero
Solo queda calcio, potasio y magnesio...
Un poco de tierra seca y agua con sus metales pesados...
Un rincon
Un instante
¿Que mas necesita una semilla para tener una chispa de vida?
Por los pecados de nuestra manos
Por los pecados de nuestra lengua
Por los pecados de nuestros padres
Por los pecados de nuestros jovenes
(written in fri 28th 2025) When i was 15 i wanted to be a war photographer
Two main reasons. One was the chaotic state of my enviroment. idk,
being exposed to mass pychosis does something to your brain
I didn't want to live like this nor i wanted to die
Thats when Capa & Taro came in.
Alt-j wrote an amazing song in 2012 of these two photographers.
Capa was a maverick. He created his own rules only to later break 'em
To name one of his many jobs he was in the beaches of Normandia,
also known as day D in WW2
Only 11 photos survived to what is known today as The Magnificent Eleven
And for the first time in history
war was being photographed in full action
Taro was not behind him, she was right by his side
Some even said she was ahead of Capa
They fell in love with a passion
that is only known in times of war.
The passion was not only in the love they had for each other
but they also shared the same passion for war photography
It came to a point where it seemed near impossible to distinguish
one from another when looking at their photos
Dec 1 2025
At the end nothing happened. Just a boy with crazy dreams(or not)
Like a girl asking a guy in a spiderman suit to help her kill the queen of england
I love cameras, my love for cameras came from my step-father.
I should've taken more photos when I had you
I should've given you more kisses and hugs whenever I could